One thing that has surprised us is how quiet this adoption has been. We send out inquiries here and there and hear back from inquiries every once in a while. For the most part - it is much less communication between us and case workers than we thought it would be. As we have gotten to look closer at kids' files, we have prayed for God's plan to be clear - to pull out of an inquiry knowing they wouldn't be a good fit for our family or to seek more information wondering if they could possibly be ours. God has opened and closed doors as we knew He would. He continues to guide our family and asks for us to take small steps of faith - making decisions not knowing what the outcome will be.
We continue to look into faces and send out inquiries wondering if these will end up being our kids - with each sweet face a little piece of me feels like it goes with them wondering if they will one day call me mama. With each new step I feel my heart getting wrapped up in theirs and know that my heart won't be able to come out unscathed. Stepping out in faith - putting your heart out there - not knowing what will come of it - knowing you may get hurt in the process - moving forward knowing that it may not work out but if it does it will be full of blessings beyond belief!
This is where we find ourselves - - too committed and deep in the process to be anything but ALL IN! Praying and hoping that God's plan looks like the plan playing in our hearts. Trusting and hoping that God will continue to clearly open and close doors as He brings our family closer to home. Faithfully continuing to step out in faith - - even when we can't see what is around the bend.
Please continue to pray for us along this process. Pray for us to trust God's plan for our family and be bold and brave enough to follow it, even when it feels blurry and unknown. Pray for our children that will be coming into our home (wherever they are) - that they would be safe and loved and that God would start preparing their hearts for the difficult transition that will come. Please pray for our children in our home now - that they would be ready and prepared for all the change that will come to our home and for ease of transition to a new normal when the time comes. Please pray for our health and finances - - honestly Satan does not like seeing orphans cared for or families uniting together in God's name and we have felt bombarded and tested and know it is because we are obediently following God's plan. Please pray that we would continue to lean on God and step out in faith as He grows our family.