Peace in the Wait

Many people have been asking how things are going with the adoption.  Well - - - it has been going, it just doesn't feel like it.  Our home study has been out and about in the land of social workers for two months now.  With all of the kids waiting for families, you'd think that it would be a fairly swift matching.  This, however, is not the case.  The process has been pretty quiet and we really don't hear much from week to week.  The process is so very different from our previous adoptions and we really didn't quite know what to expect during the wait.  We weren't sure if the process was normal for this type of adoption or if we needed to be doing things differently, so we contacted our case worker a week or so ago to get her take on things.  I came away from my conversation with her feeling better and more settled into the waiting game.  She said that our case has been very normal and that we have some good and active inquiries (we submit inquiries on kids that we are interested in and they look at our home study).  She said that since she has been doing this, no family has been matched in the first couple of months.  She said the average is SIX MONTHS and only one family has ever gone over a year.  She said she has gotten really good feedback from social workers about our home study and our family.

SO - - we wait!  We wait for God to orchestrate it all!  We wait for God to prepare our hearts!  We wait for God to prepare their hearts!  We wait for God to paint His masterpiece and guide us down His path in growing our family!

And honestly - - I have PEACE!  The last several months have been hard and trying.  There have been several things that our family has dealt with that would have been major triggers for kids from trauma and frankly would have been a nightmare to have dealt with if the new kids would have been with us.  God knew - God always knows!  He knew what we could handle - He knew what our summer was going to look like - He was faithful to walk with us and prepare us for what's to come.  There were MANY days over the last few months that I apologized to my husband for being a HOT MESS!!  I felt like I was in a season - a time of being tried and tested.  A time of being shaken up and put through the wringer.  And honestly - most days - I failed!  I failed miserably on my own and learned to lean on God to hold me when I felt overwhelmed.  I looked to Him for peace when I felt like I couldn't handle even one more thing.  My motto became "It is what it is!"  There were so many things that seemed to be coming our way - one thing after another - and there wasn't much we could do about any of them.  But we could hand it over to God and have Peace.  It has taken many months but I feel like I'm finally to the point of PEACE.  Peace about my health - Peace about my family - Peace about my family to be!  There is not a thing too SMALL or too BIG for my GOD and boy am I thankful!  I'm at PEACE!

So - - we wait!  We will wait and trust God to work it all out for His glory!  We will wait in the peace that can only be found in Him!  We wait...